Let Not My Foolishness Get in the Way

A Heartfelt Reflection from Psalm 69:5–7

“O God, You know my foolishness, and my sins are not hidden from You.
Let not those who wait for You, O Lord God of hosts, be ashamed because of me;
Let not those who seek You be confounded because of me, O God of Israel.
Because for Your sake I have borne reproach; shame has covered my face.”
— Psalm 69:5–7 (KJV)

Life Has Been Heavy Lately

Recently, I’ve felt the weight of life pressing in. My husband was rushed to ICU, our home is under renovation, work keeps piling up, and I’m still trying to show up for my community as a volunteer. In the middle of it all, a surprising moment of joy came—I published my first book on Amazon. A dream I never thought would happen.

But even in celebration, I’m reminded that God sees everything. The big stuff. The little things. My struggles. My moments of strength. My foolishness.

When “Small” Sins Stack Up

Psalm 69 reminded me today: my sins and shortcomings are never hidden from God. Sometimes, we only think of sin in terms of the obvious—lies, dishonesty, stealing. But what about the careless words, the judgmental thoughts, the moments we ignore someone in need? What about when I react in frustration at my children’s decisions or go against my husband’s wishes in secret?

These things may seem minor, but they can bring shame or confusion—not just to me, but to those around me. I never want my behavior to discourage someone else’s faith.

Reproach and Responsibility

The word reproach means shame or disgrace. It can also reflect disappointment and disapproval. In Psalm 69, David says he bore reproach for God’s sake. Sometimes, we carry shame because of our actions, and sometimes because we’re walking faithfully in a world that we doesn’t understand.

But either way, I want to be found faithful. I want to be mindful that my words and actions reflect not just who I am—but Whose I am.

Walking in Awareness and Grace

God is not asking for our perfection. He’s asking for our honesty. Our willingness to check ourselves daily. To recognize our foolish ways and bring them to Him.

That’s the beautiful part of grace: the Holy Spirit doesn’t just expose our wrongs—He invites us to grow. To confess. To repent. To walk lighter and wiser.

My Prayer

Like David, my prayer is this:
“Lord, don’t let those who trust You be ashamed because of me.”

I want to walk in a way that honors God and uplifts others. And when I fall short, I want to be quick to confess, quick to make it right, and quick to give thanks for His mercy.

                                                                     In Jesus Christ Holy Name, Amen

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Thank you for reading. If this reflection spoke to you, I invite you to pause and consider what “foolishness” God may be calling you to lay down today. Feel free to share in the comments or send a message—I’d love to hear from you.

Grace and peace always,
         -Lady of Old